Always in Left Field

if this whole world is right.. then i guess im left..

i feel like the last one STANDING.. and im next..

but i would never give in to the worlds corruption..

or maybe im in denial, and im the one corrupted..

ask me whats wrong, i'ma keep saying nothing..

i just want you to realize im lying, give me a hug or something..

just say, "everything's gonna be okay"..

but it has to be from certain people or else it'll disarray..

shit, im just a lost cause, i just want my scars glossed

i want to do something bad but i dont want to be inside a cop car..

i wonder what people would say if i was crossed off..

why couldn't i be on the other planet across mars..

but in fact..... im really pluto rican..

the only thing relavant is the language your speaking..

i feel like im an outcast and the world's a bully beating..

me and taking my money, but im lucky i aint bummy..

acting grumpy, and if there is a god i bet he's saying "fuck me..

your ungrateful..

and i hate you..."

so i shook my head and said im just lonely but i do too..

All Men Are Dogs?

most women would agree that all men are dogs..

that all men are the same..

well im not a dog but id like to be treated by one..

call me your baby and take care of me...

feed me..

give me treats (wink wink)..

buy me nice little outfits (haha)..

let me sleep beside you..

but acknowledge this...

I WILL PROTECT MY QUEEN AND MY CASTLE..

AND ILL SECURE HER FROM ANY BITCH OR ASSHOLE..

so next time you call a guy a dog...

is he really that special???...

so reconsider that.

Cold Heart

my heart needs warmth

when's the last time its been nurtured

everytime i pursue it

happiness seems further

at the moment, im thinking..

i just need a hug

every answer to a question

is a shoulder shrug

im unsatiable, or at least

thats what im told

appreciate my humor

tell me how much im bold

please dont be afraid

tell me your deepest thoughts

tell me what your dreams are

and can i help you plot?

but i just want to stare

deep into your eyes

i get the butterflies

everytime our souls collide

i want to swim inside

but not between your thighs

the only way to get in your heart

is if it divides

and i'll slip in

and ill be your physician

and ill kiss and hold your heart

til its in healthy condition

im talking to the girl

that lives inside my eyelids

dreaming of the day

that she gives birth to my kids

On The Inside of My Eyelids

She lives inside my eyelids... My eyes are the only ones that lay upon her... But only while I sleep is when she's in my arms and tells me all that good shit I wanna hear, And means it... I wonder when I can remove the word "dream" from the qoute "I'm thinkin bout my dream girl"... I want to look at other women and say "those are the kind of women I used to be with but the one I'm with now is the one I always wished of having" ... ,I used to be so unsatisfied everytime I saw another chick and I knew that wasnt good but that's why I let each of em go... I want to see sexy ass women and watch my dudes get all hype about em meanwhile I'm calm as fuck...(excuse my french) Cause they're no competition to mine... I want to watch her while she sleep, and listen to her breathing... I want her to rock the lace boyshorts with her buttcheeks poppin out just like i like em...in my favorite color... I want her to understand me since no one else does... I want to wonder how I swept her off her feet and why she even chose me... I wanna be the only guy she wants... I want her to be the one... I want her to be the reason I don't wanna kill anybody today... I want my family to approve of her... I want to call her beautiful...I've never called a girl beautiful. I never felt a girl truely was... I wanna be that dude that no other dude can compare to in her eyes... I want to love her flaws and see them as perfection... I haven't seen perfection in my ex's flaws and that's how I knew they weren't the one for me... I don't wanna feel that awkwardness when she tells me she's here for me... I wanna feel security... I want her to be a nasty as I am in bed and angelic and innocent as a virgin when not... I want her to be cute, sexy, and beautiful... Cause god knows its hard to be all 3... But this is only in my eyes... Not yours...I want her to make me sane again... I want to receive a phone call because she was desperate for my voice... I want her to be everything I want... I want her to be the reason why ever ex of mine was wrong when they said no ones perfect and ill never find the girl i want... perfection in my eyes is different from perfection to the world... I want to deserve you... I think I do.. BUT... How do I get this? For now she lives inside my eyelids.